just another day

Today is just another day. My husband, if you can call him that, is being a prick. Telling me to shut up and that I annoy him.. I mean, really? WTF. He doesn't seem to realize that he to is annoying. I thought we could work this out but I'm realizing more and more that we can't. To much has been said and done between us. I hate him. 

Feeling old and ugly

I'm really feeling old and ugly all of a sudden. It's not fair. Men get better looking but ladies just get ugly. WHY?

overwhelmed and tired

Well, I am finally coming to terms that my marriage is over and my life has really taken a turn for the worse. I thought I could get past his cheating this time like I always have, but I couldn't.  I'm still so fucking angry over it. I mean, he was trying to fucking marry this bitch. And then there is the fact that he told me I wasn't his soul mate. That crushed me. Plus, I am embarrassed still because he told our friends and family that he finally found the one.. It was humiliating. Plus, he stole my things and gave her as presents. Now here is the real gut puncher, he didn't even fuck her!!!! WOW!!! I was so devastated and hurt. I know I need to find a way to move on and let go so I can heal but it's a lot easier said than done.